So the small convertibles and lil crx weren't just going to cut it for me and my bf so I got this 92 CB7 (accord) exactly a month ago. I just finished paying her off and the title is in the mail! Woot! It even has gps :P Cuz we all know how much I like to get lost. lol

So I'm settled in and as of Wed I will be employed, been a long road to get where I'm at now. And i don't mean just the move, over the last year I've delt with more shit and had more things blow up in my face than I've had my entire life, but I'm stronger and alot more mature for everything that has happened. I'd like to personally thank all my friends but especially Durango, Towyn, Kuri, Cel, Nick, leo and especially my bf Oxa. Without all of your care and support I really don't know where i would be right now. I'm looking forward to this new chapter in my life, new place new responsibilities and such. Anyway after i start work and get my schedule in I'd love to hang out with some furs again, I can't remember the last time I went to a fur meet. lol *wags tail* - Bade out!

I have a few possible jobs atm, nothing for sure yet, but I think to myself do i really wanna be stuck in a rut? So I'm actually considering enlisting....I'm at least tossing the idea around in my head.

I'm up here in East Haven until Tuesday, so anyone near by who wants to hang I'd love to meet some local furs or on my way back meet anyone on da east coast. let me know. ^^

So mom decided to call the cops on me again for something I didn't do in the first place. Cops were called, same bs as always, I just had to go somewhere so i drove to the one place I usually feel better, Suwannee river where i spent alot of time growing up. I dunno, I thought this mood I was in would get better but as I sat there thinking I  actually made myself alot worse. I see my life and sanity floating away like the last smoke from my cigarette. I get up and wonder why I even get out of bed, I hate myself, I hate my life, i hate where i live, I'm in a spiraling abyss going down into seeming nothingness. Everytime I try to advance myself or move onto something better it explodes in my face.....I'm really sick of trying right now....I don't know what to feel anymore about anything......

Just wanted to give a quick shout to everyone and let em all know I'm still alive and holding on, decided I want to go back to school for my associates and actually go somewhere with my life. I've been in a rut. Last night being the 2 month aniversery of the death of  a close friend has not helped me along. So just blah x.x I'm gona try to get to a meet or something at some point. No idea at this point. I need a cigarette. Anyhow I'm gona at least keep my lj updated almost daily.

Ok......in the last 4 days my car has had problems 3 times.....yeah...bad week. First I blew a tire doing 80 on the highway which scratched my paint and messed up the bumper a lil, i put on the spare and that was flat to so i had to be towed. Tire = $80 bucks x.x........Day Two: I decided to go for a walk at night on a trail in the woods......my mx5 gets stuck in sand and sinks up to the axels. Recovery service = $40 .... Day three, im on the highway againat night and my car starts making a weird noise then all th lights go out and i loose power when im on an overpass right in front of a semi.......X.x im lucky to be alive at this point...... alternator and or battery = about $100. So I have to find a mechanic and somehow get my alternator fixed by tuesday at the latest. x.x

2009 is shaping up to be a really bad year for me so far, to much stupid furry drama for me to keep track of, getting my hours cut at work, the death of my grandfather from ilness and good friend from a stupid addiction in the same month, watching people I care about slowly but surely spiraling downward, mom up to her usual shit and being kicked out and abused again cuz of having to live with mom awhile there again. *sigh* Well what I'm getting to is I found a new place to live out of state where I can get a job and afford rent. I'll be living with my two best friends who are the closest thing to familly I have. And it's the fresh start to my life I've been looking for awhile now. So right now I guess I'm feeling happy to have my best friends to hold me up and give me the chance I needed and a fresh start and good company,but sad because I am leaving a state and friends i've known my whole life. But it's for the best..I really need this. Anyway I wanted to keep everyone updated and let them know im moving. Best wishes to all, I'll be sure to come down to fl to visit when i can. -Bade

Epic WIn!

Wishing all my friends from all over a very happy new year. ^_^